#like a weakling i am

[yudol-skorbi]

sketches i probably won't ever finish but still love

[karlachismylife]

I just know Gaz is so fucking good at rock climbing. He's just built perfectly for it, he's got the endurance, the flexibility, the grip, the core strength, the agility, the arm spread, he's not too bulky and heavy like Soap or Ghost, his height gives him quite a lot of advantages (even though sometimes there are trails for us hobbits, but mostly being tall helps). Price could probably give him a run for his money, but since I headcanon that Price has seriously fucked up his spine and joints, especially in his fingers, he might be held back by this. Also I feel like Kyle has the best endurance out of all four of them, so he does extremely well on the long ones. He's also got that magical ability to be able to take a rest at the tiniest little handle, like literally catches himself with two toes and a pinch on a non-existent bump in the rock and relaxes as if he's lounging on a beach, all muscles resting before the upcoming difficult few meters.

Also he's one of those who will climb even in slippers, just because he gotta flex like that.

No I'm not drooling over his fingers wrapped in that tape in places where he ripped calluses off, you are.

Also this was induced by a SoapGaz thought where Gaz runs Soap through some intensive training on the climbing walls and enjoys the view of all that muscle bulk flexing and rippling as Soap struggles to find his balance and makes mistakes in dispersing his weight which limits his reach. He's so tense, he can barely slur his Scottish nonsense out, sweat streaming down the dip of his spine and soaking his tank top through.

When he finally falls of the wall after reaching the top handle, his fingers are shaking and he needs Kyle's help to untie the harness knot. Wipes his forehead, leaving a white streak of magnesia stuck to the wet skin, and huffs and grumbles about how he'll still beat Kyle's PR one day.

Gaz won't let him, of course. But he won't stop Johnny from trying either, because after that he gets to massage all those sore muscles Soap didn't even know existed, and listen to him groan as he shamelessly leaks into his boxers. Because why wouldn't Soap get off the post-gym muscle strain, really. And why wouldn't Gaz enjoy watching him get painfully hard and sensitive from barely sexual touch, exploding into his mouth as soon as Kyle wraps his lips around Soap's tip.

[scribefindegil]

the human capacity to adapt to anything is fucking me up again

[deus-ex-mona]

scrolled a little too far back on mogetwt and found pure gold:

[wesleysniperking]

It just irks me when in the OP fandom people start speculating who’s going to be the new Strawhat, when there’s still so much focus needed on the other ones. Like, we don’t have time for a new member when the other ones (other than the monster trio) aren’t given enough time and focus.

This wouldn’t be such a big problem if there wasn’t the big debate on who is more “useless” pre time-skip or post time-skip. Or “the Strawhats are a yonko crew, and they should all have haki by now.”

Adding on to that, the recency bias doesn’t help the whole matter either. The same ones who push for a new Strawhat member also criticize the Strawhats as a whole because of the non-monster trio members having not unlocked any haki, or because some can’t 1v1 an adversary. Usopp has haki but those naysayers say it “doesn’t count”.

It’s all nonsense, of course, but admittedly it gets to me.

So, why do we need one more Strawhat?

[fanfic-gremlin-ft-trauma]

Okay, I saw the post about sending you unpopular opinions and I want to ask: what's your least favorite trope in ATLA fics?

oooh I have FEELINGS about this one

ok so I might just get bitten for this but I’m sorry the amnesia/hEAVY angst trope. like yessss I knowww flwogb but darlings, I physically cannot bring myself to read such intense, vomit inducing, eye twitching, nail bitingly vicious angst on purpose. idk maybe I’m just a freak but I read fanfic to make my characters happy and there is a LINE 😭😭

anyway yeah like angst is great but there are only so many dark fics I can take before I’m like: ok are these the same characters or am i just sleep deprived

[scienceisfood]

Me: I love psychological horror, it captivates me so. I'm going to play mouthwashing.

Me only 3 minutes into the game, wandering the hallways where the only thing occurring has been music and increasing number of posters and a horse mascot that isn't that scary: mmmm, nope. Can't do this. I desperately want to but nope sorry nope. Can't. Heart rate needs to drop, bye.

[flowercrowngods]

a snippet please? of the non-tumblrable fic? 👉👈

smh you know i will never refuse anyone asking for snippets 🤍 she's nothing special though, she's a weird little one

Something Steve has always wondered is why migraines make his body shut down like that, leaving him in a state where all he can do is lie down and fall into a near-catatonic limbo until the pain has lifted enough to face the rest of the world again. Fighting interdimensional monsters and posing as a feast to demonic, modified monster bats was also agony. It also made him lose his footing and almost pass out from bloodloss and pain, his back scratched open completely where the bats dragged him across rough stone. 

Migraine pains don't really compare to those. It scares him. Because he knows that's all up in his brain. His fucked up, mangled, thrice-concussed fucking brain he never got cared for because the government goons never took them seriously. Never took him seriously. 

And now here he is, lying in a near-stranger's bed in a pitch-black room that's still somehow too bright, unmoving and hoping to pass out from it all. Hoping he won't hallucinate again this time. Hoping that he won't throw up, his body convulsing because it knows it shouldn't be feeling like this. 

Throwing up from pain. There's really nothing more fucked up than that. Or, there is. Throwing up from pain and begging an invisible man to make it stop, only to realise hours later that pain can also make you hallucinate. 

He doesn't want that. He doesn't want any of that ever again, and certainly not in a strange, dark cabin with a vampire forged from a human he never even liked. 

Tears spring to his eyes, but they're not the kind that'll fall and bring relief. They just stay in the corners of his eyes, his only way to express the waves and flares of pain washing over him, wishing he could just pass out now. 

Kas tucks him in. Steve didn’t know he could do that. It strikes him as extremely non-vampiric even in this state he’s in. Steve doesn’t react, doesn’t so much as blink his eyes open as the pain travels up to his hairline and settles there, flaring over his forehead to his eyes and down to his cheekbones and then up again, a never-ending motion that he never stands a chance to get used to. 

“Safe,” Kas says again, and it zings through Steve’s body with violent force that doesn’t match at all with the gentle tone he’s using. 

Scrunching his forehead to stave off more words, Steve hopes that Kas will take the hint and know to shut up. 

But he has no such luck. 

“Here.” 

“Shhh.” He shakes his head minutely, shushing the vampire with a barely there noise, keeping the damage to a minimal amount. “You can go,” he slurs, trying not to speak at all. “Please.” 

A beat of blessed, blissful silence, before there’s shuffling again. Kas does walk to the door, but then stops in the doorway. Steve doesn’t want to look. 

“No.” Kas sounds surprised about it. Mystified. Like he wants to leave, but can’t. 

What?

“Stay. Here.” 

Whatever you do, just please be quiet about it, Steve thinks desperately. Instead of saying any of that, he shushes him again, hoping that the thump he hears means that Kas is sitting on the floor now. Though he doesn’t understand why. 

Why do you care? 

“Safe,” Kas says again, whispering the word into the room, and it doesn’t zing through Steve this time. 

With Kas refusing to leave and his pathetic state of existence so blatantly on display, and with waves and waves as his nerves fire signals to his overworked and tired brain, more tears spring to Steve's eyes. And this time they fall. Silently, and without a sob, without even a sniffle of acknowledgment. But they fall. 

And Steve just wants to go home.

[syn0vial]

trying to figure out whether i'm really into this girl or if i'm just blinded by my critical weakness for butch chivalry

[goldensunset]

i don't really know how to word this but like i feel like i'm gonna forever have to deal with the pain and heartache of one of my very first pokémon games- the first 'normal' pokémon game i've ever played, that i will have lasting nostalgia and love for as a result of it being formative to my introduction into the series- being the one that will forever be looked down upon for bad graphics and technical issues as a result of the game having been rushed

like i honest to goodness want to scream and yell and cry into the void about how this means everything to me and will always be one of my fave games just in general. but how am i gonna do that without someone being like 'the broken overpriced mess? the one that's missing all this stuff from the older games that was great? the thing with all the cringe? that one?' or whatever. and the thing is they aren't wrong for their criticisms either like i know the fact that they rushed this wonderful game hardcore is a massive stain on its reputation and it hurts me too but like i cannot turn off the brain full of love in me and be a mean critic. or even an impartial one. i mean i criticize everything i love don't get me wrong i am constantly running my mouth about what i like and don't like. but at the end of the day i approach all media with an unusually optimistic mindset. if you see me talk a ton about something no matter what i'm saying you can bet it means i love it.

just. aaagh. it's always tough being a new fan of an old series. i'm like too embarrassed to express my opinions bc i feel like they're invalid y'know? i feel so exhausted every time i see something to the effect of like 'oh those poor kids these days having to deal with such bad quality everything what a bad time to be a fan of pokémon wow y'all make me feel so old' well see the thing is i actually am thriving and i love it here. and i'm also an adult myself so i have more critical thinking skills than people who played red when they were like five years old did. and even with the power of critical thinking i manage to be in love with this. join me in marvelling at the beauty of life

[polygondotcomvideoproducer]

every day I stray further from god's light and closer to purchasing baldurs gate 3

[mulling-over-milgram]

Haruka’s victim / butterflies / my interpretation of haruka’s murder

Inspired by bluuepink07’s amazing yuno post!

https://www.tumblr.com/blueepink07/731734712212668416/i-just-noticed-that-this-part-from-yunos-door?source=share

so before I get into the butterflies I want to establish how I interpret haruka and his victims relationship.

Its almost certain that haruka’s victim was his friend rather then a family member even though prisoners can lie I don’t see a reason to doubt haruka here so I’m concluding that she’s his friend.

I also believe haruka went to see fire works with her and that this mv shows them watching them

haruka talks alot about his weaknesses about not living up to expectations we see this consistently

But haruka implies he wasn’t always seen like this

So at some point something changed haruka got diagnosed? was devolving as fast? Or something else which is probably when the family get the dog. Idk if this is common in real life but it is some what a troop in fiction of getting pets for children how are struggling I think his mother bought it in hopes of it helping him become a “normal child” and we know how it goes from there…

Later he meets his victim and I think she saw how lonely he was and wanted to befriend him or something like that and at first haruka loves the attention

but what I think happened is his mother starts giving her attention.

We already know haruka’s mother wanted a girl and haruka’s friend was probably what she had wanted in a child

He finds it unfair and doesn’t want to lose the love of his mother to his friend and he already knows that killing the dog gave him attention and he probably saw this as some kind of betrayal

so kills her okay know I’v covered the generally accepted stuff now we’re on the same page time to get into this symbolism nonsense!

I think that the dead haruka and the butterfly are both representative of his victim.

I think haruka kills his younger self out of guilt that her life had more value so he should have been the one to die but also he see’s his victim as his replacement , his victim as himself as a child , the version of him when his mother still loved him as the version of himself that could be loved. She is a loveable version of him.

something bluuepink07 pointed out her post was this symbolism around butterflies

This and that butterflies can symbolise wishes this the main reason I think haruka’s friend reached out to him because he was lonely

she grained his wish of not being lonely of being loved as a “weakling” by being his friend but also he thought killing her would grant his wish of being loved by his mother and because he killed her he went to milgram a place where he gets attention she with her death further granted his wish. Butterflies can change , butterflies are beautiful , they can be loved and appreciated but haruka?

[delightfuldevin]

I got this Petey sticker as a freebie with something I ordered from ebay and I didn’t know where to put it so I put it on the rack that holds my dumbbells. And now I imagine that he’s my workout buddy,,

[the-eldritch-it-gay]

DID MAJEXATLI STEAL THE GITH EGG because they COULD have a child now………. raised by the most questionable polycule in the gate

I have it so Lae'zel is the one who gets entrusted with the egg (though with a bit of Majexatli's persuasion nudging her towards agreeing to take the egg and raise it). The game now at least has dialogue with Lae'zel about it which is nice, since it was weird the whole githyanki egg stuff as it was before.

I know more dialogue can happen later on but so far Majexatli has just had the chance to ask Lae'zel how it feels to be a protector of a githyanki egg :)

[Devnote 1] Not too harshly [Devnote 2] A momentary maternal instinct comes over Lae'zel

In any case, though, something very homosexual about Lae'zel and Majexatli caring for an unborn child before they've even held hands.

[mysdrymmumbles]

someone come put my new bookshelf together. I cleared space for it and vacuumed. Why do I have to put it together, too?

[watchmakermori]

just watched episode 5 of blue eye samurai and oh my god mizu's husband is such a coward. imagine going off her after sparring with her. doesn't this loser know that being threatened at knifepoint is the sexiest thing a woman can do to you